Personal Journal #5 – Give me strength
Ok, I’m about to be really over this diet crap. I’m so hungry and it’s really depressing to think about the wonderful Lean Cuisine that’s waiting for me at home. Oh how I long for the days when I could just go and eat what I wanted from what ever restaurant we wanted to go to. It kind of sucks that we can’t go out to eat anymore for dates cause I can’t eat the food at the restaurants. It either has too much fat or to many carbs. I just feel like crying. I can’t let my blood sugar get too high so I need to stay away from excessive processed carbs. I need to lose weight so I need to stay under 18g of fat per meal. Have you tried to stay under 18g of fat per meal and only take in around 1400 calories per day? I have no idea what to do for dinner tonight. We won’t be getting home until after 8 and I don’t feel like cooking. It’s been a long day. I guess it’s only fair I suffer since I’ve been doing what ever I’ve wanted for years… but this f*ing sucks!